Getting Started

Hi there!

I'd like to start out by introducing myself and what I will be blogging about. I am a 21 year old gal who is a bit overweight...I am in need of some motivation and something that will truly hold me accountable to what I am trying to accomplish. So, I will be posting about my weight loss process, for the most part.

My journey has been off and on with this whole weight loss endeavor. You see, I LOVE junk food. In fact, the very first solid food my mom fed me was a french fry - so really, it's not my fault. Haha. No, I take full responsibility in the fact that I have a hard time passing up salty snacks and sweet treats. And usually, when I indulge in a tasty-but-not-so-good-for-you food, I eat it in a large amount - it's just habit :/

That, combined with the laziness of not wanting to exercise, will really do some damage as you might imagine. I hit my highest weight at around 196 lbs about two months ago. I constantly felt disgusting on the inside and out and my self esteem--which has always been pretty spotty--was plummeting. I do have to note that ever since I was 170 lbs, I've known that I HAD to lose weight and I would tell myself 'this HAS to STOP NOW' and I would start a diet and/or exercise program but then life happens (i.e. I would make excuses for why I had no time to commit). Another problem I have is I get bored fairly easily so even when I bought Tony Horton's 10 Minute Trainer (since I was sooo busy) I stopped that after a month and a half because I was bored.

For the past six weeks, I have been working out at least five times a week and eating smaller portions. I also write down what I eat. I am currently at 185 lbs - about an 11 lb loss. Not too bad, right? I have been jogging around, doing squats, a little weight/resistance training, etc. basically anything that I could think of. Of course, I am already pretty bored with the routine so next week I will begin P90X....again. I began P90X two years ago and it was working great but I stopped because I was too busy with work.

So, now, all that is occupying my time is an internship three days a week and I get home by 8 p.m. so what excuse can I come up with this time?? I am also impatient and just want this weight gone which is why I lose motivation. But I am DETERMINED to work hard at this and get to my goal weight of 140 lbs - a healthy weight for a female my height, 5'5". I am hoping that simply by keeping up this blog and writing about everything will not only hold me accountable but will keep up my motivation throughout this process.

I'm not sure who will end up seeing this blog, but I am so ashamed of how I look (I will be posting body shots) that I would probably die of embarrassment if anyone I knew saw this and knew it was me. I will be remaining anonymous by name; but, that way, I will hold nothing back with what I share with whomever somehow sees this. I am doing this blog for myself but I hope that somehow, some one who needs it will see it and get something positive out of it as well.

Think positive.Work hard. Get results.

CeeCee (my totally incognito alias)